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  This is chapter six.  To view other chapters find the links below.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler and sadly never will. *cries in corner*

Title: Your Attachment

Pairings: Sebastian/Ciel

Rating:  T / Pg-13

Genre: Drama/Angst/Romance

Summary: He needed me.  As for myself?  Well...I needed a lot of things.  Too bad pretending to be a girl while also pretending to be Sebastian's girl friend weren't some of them.

Timeline: Actual universe.  Also known as 21st century.

Warnings: Will eventually be yaoi! (Sorry mom.) 
sorry for OOCness.  I won't try to have it that way, but since it is AU it will have to be slightly OOC.  Also, I will place warnings on the chapters that have yaoi, so don't worry.  This chapter is yaoi free! 8D (Mostly XD) Also some light cursing is in this chapter.

A/N:  Uhh so this chapter will likely have a lot of typos.  I'll clean them out as soon as I can!  Thank you. =3

Status: Continuing

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Your Attachment

By Sasurealian

Chapter Six 






  "Sebastian…I…I….I can't swim, so there is no need for me to go skinny dipping."  I spoke while my heart raced a mile a minute.

"Relax, I'll be here the entire time. "  Yea, so he says, but then again, for him to watch me means he has to be looking at me, and the whole looking part is what bothers me.

"I'm self conscious."

Aw damnit.  Did I really have to go and say that?  Of course as I said that I wrapped my arms across my chest as if I have boobs.  I blushed mad once I realized I was acting a little too much like a girl.

Sebastian snickered from inside the moonlit water, "You should trust me and stop coming up with excuses."

I swallowed back whatever was in my mouth and gazed at Sebastian and his glowing face.  His eyes fluttered shut gracefully and he seemed completely relaxed.

I turned back and watched the women laugh and scream while giving Sebastian devious glares.  Soon they would be after him like a dog goes after stake.  

Ugh fine.  FINE!  I'll do it, but only because I have lost my mind.  Plus, Sebastian wasn't looking at me, so it couldn't be that bad.

I cursed myself as I slipped off the two pieces and let them fall to my ankles.  Sebastian was turned the opposite way, but I could hear him hum in happiness, "I knew you'd warm up to the idea."

"Pervert."  I hissed straight back at him as I walked cautiously to the end of the deck.

"If you turn around I will poke your eyes out with a fork and then place them in to microwave on high until they explode THEN hang them on the telephone wires for the birds to eat.  Not kidding."

Sebastian remained turned from me until I slipped into the water clinging to the deck.  I made a note to make sure my chest was covered because if he saw I had no boobs bad things might happen.

Once his eyes met mine I watched him grin mad.  I was sure there was a what-the-fuck look blatant across my face.

"There are rules.  Don't come near me and don't touch me."  I snapped as I clung tighter to the deck.  I was pretty much a huge secret and if you came too close bad things were sure to happen.

"Those are awfully boring rules."

I snorted as I leaned into the deck even closer if that were possible, "That is because you're a pervert who doesn't know a boundary when it is in front of you."

"I know how to respect women."

"Pttf, then you know to stay on your side of the lake."

I kept feeling the heat rise into my cheeks.  This was beginning to be an uncomfortable situation for me and Sebastian wouldn't stop looking.

"Knock it off with the staring."  I mumbled.

"I can't help it."  His voice was serene and it made me duck my head lower into the water until my pig tails became soaking wet, "You're so….hmm….unique."

His words made me go completely under the water and to my grand luck my hands slipped off the deck and I went under with my feet paddling without a substance to stand on.  Pretty much meaning I was drowning.

Although I suddenly felt arms around my middle and I was soon lifted back into the surface in a coughing fit.

"Woah, you weren't kidding when you said you can't swim."

"hu hu hu..y-yea…huh u hu, c-cause I never hu hu learned."  I said as water emerged from my lungs.

Then everything went completely silent, because this is what I just realized.  Sebastian's arms were still wrapped around my middle and I was still naked and his eyes were wide eyed on mine and I felt my heartbeat shatter in an all out race.

"U-uh…"

"You……you…."  Sebastian still held me as his eyes looked at me unblinking, "Wig…a wig.  You wear a wig?"

That was when my heart hammered hard, but at the same time I was glad that he didn't find something else out.  If his hands slipped up and little higher I'm sure his facial expressions would only worsen.

"Yea…a wig!  I have to wear it at work since I have embarrassing short hair."  I scoffed as I clung back to the deck having Sebastian release me, "So I didn't tell you I actually have short hair and because you didn't ask I never bothered to let you know about it."

Sebastian burst into a weird fit of laughter that – almost – scared me.

I pulled the wig off and threw it onto the deck with a beat red face, "Shut up you idiot!  Wigs are fine if you know how to wear them."

"No…it isn't that.  Just you pull off that wig really well."  His eyes blinked once and some caustic smile captured his lips making me dread being here, "I like your short hair more I think."

I remained silent as I watched him study my new attire, "You look like someone I've met before….like..like Ke-"

"Nope, I am the only Ciel out there."  I nervously chuckled with a fake hint behind it.

Let me stop my little story right there.  I have never in my whole life been so out of character.  Here I was in a lake naked.  Okay, that doesn't seem too abnormal except the guy who is joining me thinks I am a girl when really I'm not.  Then I soak my wig and it comes off and now I'm sure he is being reminded of Keyon.  I was thanking my lucky stars that it was dark outside because my makeup was probably running off my face and if that came off then he was sure to figure out I was a damn guy and not a girl.


So many bad things to happen in one day.  I was trying not to drown myself here and now.  It was tempting though.

"SEBASSSTIANNN!"

There those women go again.  Although I want to say that I was saved by the screaming of fangirls because that meant Sebastian would stop questioning me.

"Oh for the love of satan."  Sebastian sighed as he floated closer to me.  I gave him the don't-touch-me look and he acknowledged it as he kept a extra foot away from me and my deck.

"Look…Ciel…"  He began as he gravely narrowed his eyes towards the fangirls, "I know you don't trust me and that is all up to you.  I personally don't care if you don't trust me, but right now I need you to give some of that hatred for me up and kindly trust me.  Only for a moment."

His voice was calm and serious, but also soft.  It made me stare at him in wonder, "What….what do you want?"

He reached out towards me with his hand and gave a half smile, "let me lead you towards those trees over there so those girls can't find us.  It's darker and so-"

"You're being a pervert again."

"Ciel I-"

"You just want to touch me and I won't be you're little-"

"-Ciel, you're nothing like those other pathetic women."  His voice wasn't shouting level, but still high enough for me to stop and listen.  His hand graced open for me to take and I glared at it in silence before I finally broke and spoke.

"Why should I trust someone like you?"

"Why shouldn't you give me a chance?"

…

…….

I pressed back into deck until my spine hit the wood.  My heart was beating wildly in my chest and for once in my life the anger that I had bottled up so well began to free itself.  I reached out my hand and tensed up once his hand firmly connected with mine.

Sebastian tugged me towards him and I floated near him as he held onto me, "Don't worry.  I won't let you go and I won't be all touchy."

I scrunched my face, "Hn, you better not."

"I'm still surprised you trust me."

"This isn't trust."

"OH?  This what is it?"

"Not trying to die by the water or your rabbit fangirls.  Plus…it is my job after all."

Sebastian nodded, "Oh of course.  Your job."

He slowly swam towards the trees where nothing but dark shadows broadcasted over the lake.  It was pitch black and all I could see were Sebastian's eyes and his glowing ivory skin.

"You hands are clenched really tight."  Sebastian teased.  I was sure he was smirking in delight at how terrified I was.  This was not one of my hobbies by any mean of the word.  I was a coffee and newspaper guy.  I could live in Starbucks!

"Relax.  I'm here."

"That doesn't make me feel better."

"Shh….just glide with the water."  He said hushing me as he closed his eyes.  I brought my free hand up to his shoulders and grabbed it as we floated in the water.  It was awkward, but defiantly something I don't regret trying.  His shoulder was warm and I felt safe in his arms.

Ew….

….that…that should never go through my head ever again.  I am going crazy!  I need tea.  Yea, tea and a nice, long, warm bath.

"You should tell me something about yourself so I can get to know my girlfriend better."

"Fake girlfriend.  And I don't want to talk about myself."

Sebastian slipped his arms tighter around my waist, "Why not?"

"Hn. Just because."

"Okay then."  Sebastian looked ahead and towards the loud women, "So tomorrow I might have another date.  You're going to join me right?"

I rolled my eyes, "I don't think I have a choice now do I?"

"You have a choice I just doubt you'll refuse when I am your only way of surviving."

This slightly angered me.  I told myself years ago I would never rely on anyone else to help me.  I don't need the support of others.  My parents use to tell me I was strong enough to do whatever I wanted and after they died all of that seemed to be a lie.  How could I depend on myself when I had nothing?

I didn't need Sebastian's help and if he thought without him I would be poor and useless he was wrong."

I pushed him away immediately and began to doggie paddle to the coast of the water.

"H-hey Ciel.  What is wr-"

"Don't even start!"  I barked as I desperately tried to keep my head above the water.  Luckily for me the shore was close and once I reached it I glared back at Sebastian, "Close your eyes."

"Ciel…where are you going?  What did I sa-"

I huffed as I placed my hands over my chest.  It was probably too dark for him too see any of my body.  I took the chance and stood up running towards a tree, "Shut up.  I don't need you to pity me.  That was why you asked me to be your girl friend isn't it?  Because you felt bad for me and thought that you could help me out.  Don't play the stupid, good Samaritan act on me, Sebastian."

"You're wrong."  Sebastian retorted as he headed after me.  I backed away and ran through the trees.  I didn't care that I was naked and I didn't care that my face was steaming crimson in anger.

I made it back to the deck and threw on my bikini in record time.  Then I ran back towards the cars and opened the Nissan's door and took out my extra clothes I brought.

I changed into them quickly and peered outside the bathroom.  Everything crude in the world flashed through my mind.  How could Sebastian use me?  Did he think I was some desperate girl who wanted money?  It almost made me look like a prostitute.  The only difference was I wasn't sleeping with him.

I just realized I left my wig on the deck and my hair was still short.  That only added to my problems.  However I did change my attire into a blue jumpsuit with a white T-shirt underneath it.  It was girly enough for my liking.  Plus, the bow that centered the outfit screamed girl, so I was safe.

I decided I would go back and get the wig before I forgot although I froze once I saw Sebastian emerging from the forest area.  He was dressed in his striped overcoat and suit and I mentally scowled.  He was looking for me by the way his eyes scanned the area.

I quickly avoided him as he turned in the opposite direction.  I needed to head back towards the deck without him finding me.

Although somewhere along the way I got lost.  I couldn't remember which direction I went in and I was feeling really confused.

I went left…and then right.  The deck was down the lake, so all I have to do is follow the trail.  Although see….the issue here is that Sebastian would spot me.  So now I am lost and can't remember how in the hell to get back.

"Wellllll, if it isn't the bitch."

My breath instantly became stuck in my throat and I told- no begged myself not to turn around.

Although my effort was in vain because the men grabbed my shoulders and stopped me from ever thinking about running.

"You have pissed us off tonight."  He spat as he forced me to turn around and face him.  He had shaggy hair and his foul scent radiated off him.

"Let me go immediately."

All three of them burst into laughter, "Oh you're a funny one."

"What should we do to her?"  One of them asked.

"I don't know…how about we rape her them tear each one of her fingernails off one by one?"

I tried to pull myself away, but they were stronger than me.  I forgot all about them attacking me earlier, but now I was alone and the worst part was there was no escape and nowhere to run.  I was lost in the woods with a bunch of murdering rapists.

"H-hey release me!"  I screamed out again, but there wasn't anything I could do.  The taller of then men pulled me onto the ground and I began to struggle.

"Try all your will kitten, but you can't escape."  He burst into a sadistic laughter and I felt vile run up and down my throat.  I…I was…scared.

Tears brimmed in my eyes.  The same tears that wouldn't fall when my parents were declared dead.  The same tears I had as I was left alone in the freezing cold park.  I felt so alone.

He struggled with undoing to buttons to my jumpsuit and I tried to fight him off by kicking him in the face.  My foot finally connected with his shit ugly face and I tried to scramble away, but was caught.

He bashed my head into the ground and I coughed as dirt filled into my mouth.  I swore I had a broken nose at the forced impact, but none of the pain registered.  I was so afraid and there was no one left to save me.

Then his face…his ivory and perfect skin flashed into my mind and without realizing I called his name out.

"Sebastian!"

Nothing happened.  No one came.  I coughed again and again into the dust as the men struggled with my clothes.  I was happy to be wearing something so difficult, but there attempts only pissed them off to the point they were enraged.

They smuggled my face into the dirt once again and his knee dug into my back.  I didn't cry out anymore and kept quiet.  I hope they kill me.  I really hope they do.

Suddenly the force was gone and I heard a loud cry and a breaking of bones.

All three of the men were tossed like an egg into the ground and they all glanced up and ran.  I was afraid, but finally let my eyes turn around.  I stared into those glimmering red ones and my heart calmed.

"Seb….as..tian…"

"We're sorry!"  The men begged as they ran off with their tails between their legs.  Sebastian's face was raw with emotions and I breathed deeply as blood poured from my nose.

Yea, they broke it…

Sebastian reached out towards me and I flinched.  He paused his actions and stared at me.  My face must have been a wreck and I knew there were tears easing up in the irises of my eyes.  

Finally his hand cupped my face and I bit my lip trying not to cry; trying not to let that emotion break me.  I wouldn't be weak!  I wouldn't be a child who cries!

I was suddenly pulled into large arms and engulfed into eternal comfort, "Ciel, I was worried."  He merely whispered into my hair.  I didn't say a word as I gave up and cried silent tears into his shoulders.  He had saved me and I felt so relieved and so safe.

There were many people in my life I thought I could never trust, but right now I started to let a slither of a trust release to Sebastian.

He held me tight for what felt like hours and I could have remained there for the rest of the night.

"It is okay to depend on someone."  He spoke in a low tone so it wouldn't break the tension.  I remained silent as he continued on, "I only want you to depend on me because perhaps I actually care.  That is all."

And the saddest part that scared me more than anything was maybe I was starting to care, too.  Just…maybe.

Chapter one:
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Chapter two
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Chapter three
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Chapter four
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Chapter five
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Chapter six
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Chapter Seven
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Chapter Eight
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Chapter Nine:
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Next update Not sure....maybe 8/22/2011

The preview picture is from a doujinshi I am reading. It is in Japanese thoe and when I was writing this I had this scene play in my head. It matches it PERFECTLY!

Doujin here: [link]

Her art is the best Kuro art work I have seen XD

Also, I'm actually proud of myself for updating earlier and not later. XD GO ME!

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I just about cried! This was amazing! :clap: Bravo!